A rough day

David is having a rough day today. He's really missing the dogs, especially Mr. Wiggles. I don't know how to console him because I am grieving too. I can keep saying we've done the right thing, but it seems hollow somehow.

They are still not on the Rescue's website. I feel like it won't be real to me until I see them posted online. It occurred to me last night that someone else will soon own my dogs. I won't be there owner any more. I'm not right now as far as that goes. I've given them up. I need to let go.

I've been thinking that I should have changed my lifestyle to fit them. I should have become more active and expressed more energy. Was I not willing to change for them? Or is it what it is - a poor match of human and breed. Love wasn't enough. They needed a lot more than just love. They needed exercise and disipline (obedience) and I wasn't consistent enough in those areas.

I feel like I failed them.