If only

Life is just so empty without the dogs. I don't know what to do without them. I have all this free time now and I can't think of anything to do. I just want to have a dog again. I really miss having a dog. Now that I've had a dog, I can't stand being without one. I just want to go down there today and get Skooter. Today is the last day I could do that. I won't really do it, but I wish I could. He's already promised to a family that has kids. I'm sure they are excited thinking about picking him up. I wonder if they talked about him while they were on vacation. Are they totally looking forward to adding him to their family? I hope so. Skooter deserves the best. And I just couldn't give him the best life he could have. I know I'll figure it out sooner or later, what to do with all this time I have now. I'm angry that things have worked out the way they did over the last year and a half and that it meant having to give up my dogs. If only things had been different. If only.