Torturing myself

Why do I do this? I spent my morning creating a DVD of Skooter and Moped. It's a slide show of thier pictures with a George Winston soundtrack. It was very touching to watch it. I started crying at one point. Seeing their pictures so big, on the TV, was a bit overwhelming. So, why do I do this to myself? Because I can't let go. There's no update on them today so I'm feeling empty. In eight days Skooter will be with his new family. What will I do once the updates stop? I want to continue the Dog Blog for as long as I'm able to, but at some point the updates will stop.

I will always love them and miss them. But I can't keep a blog going on those feelings only. There's got to be something to talk about. I'm afraid that at some point there will be nothing to say. That makes me sad.